atheilen

I'm writing a scene right now where one of my main characters has decided to Make a Stand. He's decided that he won't stand to see a reprehensible act committed. He will take action. He will live his beliefs, finally, instead of lying or merely paying them lip service. And he gets to demolish a completely pathetic character in order to do it.

It's beautiful.

And it hurts like hell, because in two pages, the whole thing will come crashing down on him.

I think I find moments like these harder to write than the tragedy that follows them. Because, even though I've had this sequence planned out for ages, part of me is still rooting for him. Part of me is going "YES!" as he begins to carry out justice.

And then I remember.

My mom asked "You can't just make it a happy story, can you?" No, no I can't. At least not in Chapter 7 of (probably) 25. The incident that is about to happen changes the direction of the entire series. I suspect even I haven't figured out how important it is.

But damn, it hurts when it's like this, when the character is struggling to gain the high ground and I have to push them down.

Or something like that.

Onward.