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Where I am and where I've been
Nov. 12th, 2011 12:34 pmSo. Um. Hi.
As most of you probably know, I have spent the last four years in Ottawa, getting my Bachelor of Humanities degree. It was...very much its own world, and I spent most of my time there reading, not writing. This caused me to fall silent on the internets, though I still kept lurking in all my old haunts. I sort of had this hangup about blogging when I wasn't writing, though, as if I didn't have the right to speak, or that I didn't have the right to use the time in that way. This is, of course, ridiculous; I wish now that I had blogged, so I could have shown you what it was like, and had that record when the experience was gone. My undergrad was wonderful and horrible and unlike anything else (for me, I think, even more so than others; several classmates have begged me to write a memoir of it.) But it didn't leave much room for anything else.
I am not in Ottawa anymore. I am in Toronto, doing something I swore I would never do...my Master's degree. I am attending the Centre for Medieval Studies at UofT, and I love it! That being said...remember when I first moved to Ottawa, and how hard it was? This is exponentially harder. Hard enough that I am not sure I will be able to continue with academics after this year, which breaks my heart. I love the life of the mind, but a girl's gotta be able to wash her hair. Disability access in this country is better than it was for sure, but we need more than access. We need participation, and that, at least for me at this point in my life, is nearly impossible. I am very tired.
So I thought I would turn to this outlet again. I have missed your presence in my life. No promises about posting regularly, but it was important to me to let you know I love and care about you all. Oh, and that I;m writing again. Not much, but just a little, and only to please myself.
So. Tell me about your adventures?
As most of you probably know, I have spent the last four years in Ottawa, getting my Bachelor of Humanities degree. It was...very much its own world, and I spent most of my time there reading, not writing. This caused me to fall silent on the internets, though I still kept lurking in all my old haunts. I sort of had this hangup about blogging when I wasn't writing, though, as if I didn't have the right to speak, or that I didn't have the right to use the time in that way. This is, of course, ridiculous; I wish now that I had blogged, so I could have shown you what it was like, and had that record when the experience was gone. My undergrad was wonderful and horrible and unlike anything else (for me, I think, even more so than others; several classmates have begged me to write a memoir of it.) But it didn't leave much room for anything else.
I am not in Ottawa anymore. I am in Toronto, doing something I swore I would never do...my Master's degree. I am attending the Centre for Medieval Studies at UofT, and I love it! That being said...remember when I first moved to Ottawa, and how hard it was? This is exponentially harder. Hard enough that I am not sure I will be able to continue with academics after this year, which breaks my heart. I love the life of the mind, but a girl's gotta be able to wash her hair. Disability access in this country is better than it was for sure, but we need more than access. We need participation, and that, at least for me at this point in my life, is nearly impossible. I am very tired.
So I thought I would turn to this outlet again. I have missed your presence in my life. No promises about posting regularly, but it was important to me to let you know I love and care about you all. Oh, and that I;m writing again. Not much, but just a little, and only to please myself.
So. Tell me about your adventures?
